F.O.F

F.O.F, Fear of Failure. (I really do hope this isn't an acronym for something else, that would be quite awkward.)

So recently I've failed multiple midterms and quizzes. What a reality check college is huh?

In high school, the material taught in lecture was pretty much photographic memory to me. I never studied for test and would always achieve the highest grades in the class. I was the curve setter, the top of the class. Coming to college with the same "No Failure" ideal I had from high school has put a tremendous amount of emotional stress on me. Failure has never been an option.

Because of failure not being an option, I question how hard I should try. I have the undeniable mentality that the harder you try to fly, the harder you will fall, and the more it will hurt. So I always think that if I don't try hard, and it turns out bad, I would be affected less. However, then I think that if I try harder, I would have done better. But, if I try my best, and I still fail, I would have to accept the fact that I am not as great as I thought myself to be.